Someone deleted the blog which is funny.
Let her read this. I want it to be known to everyone.

Dear You the one that i never liked and still don't,
Want to know why i hated u so much?
ANSWER:
I hated you BECAUSE i was inflicted with multiple ideas on how bad and nasty and unfair u were
before i even saw u in person.
But i tried to not believe until i saw it with my very own eyes.
Thanks to the ears and the walls.
I knew so much about you within 2 weeks when i just started off.
I hated you even more when you treated me like crap.
I hated you because someone has always been keeping track of your timings, what you did,
which made me think, how bad can u be right till someone does this.
This was interesting. So as curious as i can be i observed.

Then i wonder, how can someone tolerate such behavior for 4 years?
Now i realize. Because you were not given the talent or the full education that you need.
So, one thing is for sure. Learn! Learn how to not push the blames to others.
Learn! that being nice to someone who hates you only creates more assumption than peace.


I've learnt that trusting someone and sharing information with someone whom i barely know is the stupidest thing i could have ever done. But its ok. I didnt regret. Actually come to think of it, the only reason why i hated u too much was because i pity the walls and ears which couldnt stand on its own. Yes i can tell you how much someone despise you even more than i do. I CAN tell you that someone's doing this coz she's pissed that i lied about so many things. But its ok. I dont owe anyone a living. And yes! Please realise that im only 21. 21 and smarter than the rest of you. You're definately not my competition. But i thank you for giving me the opportunity to actually learn so many things in life. At this age im capable of many hidden/ seen things. Dont worry, bring me down for all i care. Coz empty vessles makes the loudest noise. Grapevines are good. Too much of it just shows how free you are. To you who tries so hard to pull a 21 year old down. Its sad to actually see that you stoop so low. Hahaha. 21 years old and the older ones tries to pull you down. 21 years old only lehs! What were u thinking?? haha

Dear you,
let me remind you again, they say, once bitten twice shy. Bitten many times but i still dont care. your SUPPER LONG experience is nothing. But please remember who ure dealing with. The friends you "trust" (of course i dont think u will trust fully). For that very person was the one who told the rest your deepest secret thinking that you will not know anything. Remember that god created us with brains to THINK before you react.

She hated you so much, but you manage to make her trust you. I salute you for that for you've not met your competition. but you've met a follower who doesnt use much of the brains but follows their heart often. Which shows her maturity and her inability to think for herself.

to the other you. If you think this is for you. Think again.
For im sick and tired of this nonsense. and i shall let the matter rest. Cause blogging FOR you is a waste of my time and effort. Im targetting the larger crowd. *wink*
Thank you for even believing me all this while or at least followed whatever i said. *Smiles*
Yes, remember im a snake. For i can be as cunning as a fox or even better defiinately better than you. Thank you for you praises for me in the past for i've never think you're smart.
For your secrets lies within, dont worry its safe *wink*



Inconclusion:
This is sad! Some must just realised that they need to learn that the ability to think is the best gift one can ever have in this world..


=) hAVE NOT been in the best of moods lately.

Humans these days are annoying.
I'm a human too and i know im annoying as well.

Anyway, U'll die. Trust me. I dun give a hoot anymore.
STUPID NO life MF.
Life when ure working...

When you're working everything is about Politics and Survival of the fittest.
Actually in this context it would be survival of the smartest.
Smart doesnt mean REALLY certificate wise smart but all you need to be is smart as in STREET smart and BITCHY smart.

Ouh well... It is no longer my concern now. This is NOT MY COMPANY. *Shrugs*

Anw! Enough about work. Lets talk about life.

Life.... Hmm...
One word : BORING.
Nothing interesting happened lately. Been busy with work as usual.

I've been out with boify often. Well not OUT actually, just see him often tts all.
But i do spend time with my girls!
Had a Karaoke session with the girls last sat and it was a BLAST!
after soo long Karaoke seems like a good way to distress....
Tomorrow would be another different session.. i wonder what's the Agenda this time. HAHA.

Dear You,
Sorry that i've not been able to tag along for all the late night parties that you and the other girls planned for. I am really tight on budget and also another reason was because im trying to cleanse myself for the fasting month. Even though SOME may thing its so not going to happen to me but at least i tried you see. I've not only turned your offer down but also the other girls. Im sorry baby. I'll make it up sometime.

ANYWAYS!
updates:

Ok one of my gf's actually finally got herself a bf, Which was not really surprising as to me its is rather inevitable. =p anyways! Congratulation! So dont complain about your insecurities issue k?

My other Gf apparently was crazy. hahaha. Initially me and zie was so sure in backing her up after she was being attacked until accidents happen for god knows what reason. So we decided to back off. As long as this boy is not a jerk! and is able to mix around well with us. I dont mind! hehs. But ouh wells.

LALALALALLA...

LIFE~ it can be supper exciting. and then it can be supper dull! WTH?! And so i haven been blogging for ages.
And yes! i was pretty much so called Busy with work despite having 1 whole week of leave from work. It wasnt tt fruitful. I suppose I went on a wasted 1 week's leave. *Shrugs* Ouh wells!

Ok many things happened so far.

ACCP is finally over like FINALLY.
It was quite interesting though. My 1st ever Asian Conference. Not bad.
And of course we had to work from 8am to 10pm which sucks actually, But who cares. its over now!

aNd so I'm freaking excited about school now. And guess what? My bf's going back to school too! How exciting. haha. but then again i was rather worried tho. The fact that he's going back to school. It is a good thing of course. But im just worried because i dont want him to go back to school because of me. And yes because of me. You know how I'm like, i guess i pressured him too much that he just decided to go back to school.. *Shrugs*

Ok my brain is in a mess right now. 1/4 of my brain says rest! Its lunch hour!
The other 3/4 says, Bitch! you've got tons of work to be done! Finish up! Holiday:

I went to redang for 4D3N
it was Fun! (despite the long bus & ferry rides)
I badly wanted to go diving but my parents refuse to allow me.
apparently there was nobody but me who wanted to try diving. SUCKS!
ANW! once the pics are up in FB i'll let the pics tell the story.

and yes! did i tell you i lost my phone on the very nite i departure for REDANG.
and yes! its even before i reach redang, it was like 2 hrs after i left SG. how nice!
Anyway! i now have a phone thanks to azie!










Work:
its getting crazy.
The crazy exec is under investigation for Fraud.
But she kind of deserve it for tarnishing my reputation. But its ok.
I no longer bother since im Leaving the lame place anyway. *shurgs*




Me:
Life's been crazy and lazy for me.
and yes im back together with him.
And u may call me stupid and all but i just cant help it. perhaps im just to used to having him around.
anw i now do know what it felt like to almost be raped by a total stranger.
and yes! NUS grad or not apparently they are all humans. *roll eyes*
what a turn off.
Lucky for me i always have a gf who applies the call for help.
its called, "HELP! SOME IDIOT IS TRYING TO GET INTO MY PANTS call"

Girls:
I miss my girls its been a while and i mean it.
its been SO LONG since we last sit together and hang out.
i miss our weekly girls sessions.


Ain:
I havent seen you ever since the shit with Indah happened.
I havent seen you ever since i came back from Redang.
I havent seen you ever since i patch back with the boy coz i knw u've hated him THAT much.
I miss you ok. and i will meet you to catch up soon!
Love you! *muacks* and when the past came back...
everything seemed like a mess... but at that very moment of time i somehow knew what i wanted.
Though i did regret certain things the fact that i might have lost a pinch of hapiness with someone i used to love and the fact that he could now provide me wadever i demand for doesnt change everything.

And i pity myself the fact that i allowed myself to get so annoyed with the situation to the extend of venging my anger to him who's pretty much innocent. and when they say, Sometimes its good to keep the truth to urself coz it might just hurt the other party like mad. and the fact that i just had to tell him the truth was difficult enough. What more the akwardness afterthat. But im glad that my dear boy is patient enough to accept everything slowly eventhough it was crazy.

Ouh wells.